What Am I Doing?

Ever have those days? You know, those days like… like Mondays? Like today?

The bulk of my day went smoothly (normal – as normal as normal can be with a toddler & a preschooler). Morning was normal, mid-day was normal, afternoon was normal. Evening, however, kind of made me stop and ask myself ‘What am I doing?’

It wasn’t bad, the things that made me think that. It was just the following: 1 – Dinner is at 5:00pm. It’s in the oven, cooking. I’m usually a stickler about no snacks after 4:30pm or the boys just won’t eat dinner. It’s 4:45pm and I’m doling out graham crackers like there’s no tomorrow! 2 – I put the boys to bed. Brayden decided he was not going to go right down, but I am adament about not rocking him to sleep (because I know he’s not sick, teething, or anything else that would require extra comfort for him to go to sleep – he just wants Mommy, which I can’t blame him for, but still…). I give him 20 min. He’s not settling down (even though I know he eventually would, but I’m not the cry-it-out kind of Mom). I go in there and bend over the crib for 10 minutes rubbing his back. I could’ve just picked him up, sat down in the rocking chair so we’d both be comfortable, but no… I’m not picking him up – he needs to learn (yeah, I know, he’s only 22 months). 3 – Both boys finally asleep. I open a bottle of wine and before I can pour myself a glass I’m using the little suck-the-air-out recork thingamabob. Duh!

So, I know those 3 tiny little things are really just that – tiny. But needless to say, they made me stop and ask for a few seconds this evening: “What am I doing?”

Well, here’s what I’m doing: I’m being a good Mom, who listens to her gut every now and then, feeding her kids when they’re hungry, helping them fall asleep, and getting really good at opening bottles of wine! Cheers to all of you!

p.s. Have you had a moment lately when you had to stop and ask yourself: “What am I doing?” Would love to hear your stories… 🙂

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About pamelazimmer

Pamela Zimmer is a #1 bestselling author and speaker, transforming her personal pain and experience of Postpartum Depression into her purpose and passion. Through her #1 bestselling book, Reclaim The Joy of Motherhood, and her mentorship program, The HAPPY Mommy Method™, Pamela guides mothers on a healing journey from battling their own Postpartum Depression to embracing motherhood with joy.

Posted on April 30, 2012, in General Parenting, Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. I have too many moments where instead of “what am I doing”, its “what did I come in here for.” I never remember until I resume what I thought I was “doing” then I say, “Oh yeah. Duh.”

  2. Laughter IS good medicine. I have days like you were describing and I don’t have any little kiddies who are my full time responsibility (yes, I babysit, but I get to go home afterwards).

    When I wonder what the heck I’m doing, I KNOW it’s because I’ve taken on too much and am trying to fit too much in a small time period. With kiddies running around and being a mom, that sounds to me like it belongs with the ‘mom is overwhelmed’ column. HELP! Can you get some help?

    • Yes, Mom IS overwhelmed (to say the least). 🙂
      I’m re-reading this again today, and I truly am laughing outloud at myself – at least I can still do that while multitasking.
      Oh, I dream of help… we’re working on it!

  3. I totally have days like this! I’ll stop what I am doing and say, “What the heck?” Then laugh at myself. Some days I just get jumbled with the day to day stuff that needs done over and over. I think that is my minds way of saying it needs a little vacation. 🙂

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